I am no longer a 20-something. As of January 5th, I am 30. I have officially been alive for 3 decades! Yikes!
My Birthday was absolutely wonderful. If it wasn't getting a billion
Facebook notifications from people sending well wishes, it was cards, and gifts
and family and friends surrounding me with love and generosity. We went out to
Dinner, played some games and went home and enjoyed some drinks and a movie.
Then the following day, while my Mom watched the kids, my Husband and I went on
a date day. Movies and shopping!! I almost felt overwhelmed with how different
this year has been compared to last year.
Last year I was depressed, and not myself. I was trying to pretend to be happy,
to put on a happy face while inside I was falling deeper and deeper into
depression, paralyzed by grief. I learned the hard way who to trust and
whom to surround myself with. It's hard to look back and remember how dark
those days really were. But, I am not that person anymore. I am not overwhelmed
by my grief and sorrow. More importantly, I am happy. Happier than I thought
I have discovered through my healing, and letting go, that I have nothing but well wishes for
those around me, even those who are no longer a part of my life now. I am not
holding on to ill feelings, and I no longer am making excuses or finding
reasons to justify my feelings. I know who I am, I know who I want to spend my
time with, who I can trust, and most importantly, I know what makes me happy
and I want the same happiness for everyone.
I want everyone to have a Husband/Wife that is truly their partner, whom helps
out whenever possible, and whom is their best friend.
I want everyone to have children who make them proud daily, and who bring their life indescribable joy.
I want everyone to have Parents that lift them up, support them, and whom are
always a source of strength
I want everyone to have Friends who check up on you, who send you funny texts
to brighten your day, who inspire you daily to be more creative, and who are
selfless and understanding, even when you aren't at your best.
But most of all, I want everyone to be happy. I want you all to wake up each
day thankful for the opportunity to try again, to love harder, and to take
When you let go of the negativity, resentment, drama, and realize that
happiness is a state of mind, and wishing well upon others is the ultimate key
to inner peace, life really begins!
So to 30, I look forward to the next decade and all the
amazing opportunities it has in store for me and my loved ones.